My name is Larissa and THIS is something very new to me – hence the excitement.
WordPress tells me to first introduce myself to you. And since I´m german and Germans always follow everyone´s demands:
Here‘s my introduction for you!
I want to spare you the details like me still attending school (is there a more boring subject I could potentially talk about??) and me being a dog mama. Or me wasting all my money on garage sales (because everything is “so cheap”).
By now, you´ve probably asked yourself two things:
- “What did I get myself into?”
- “WHY is she telling me all this?”
Well, as I told you, I had to introduce myself in good ol´german fashion!
But let´s get to WHY I created this website.
I was anorexic. WHAAAT, no decorative explanations that could make it more readable (is that even a word)?
One might ask: “Larissa, are you okay?!”
I now am.
But during my eating disorder, the darkest time of my life, there was no room for joy, let alone for anything fun or beautiful. I suffered.
And I know that there are a lot of beautiful souls who need help just as much as I needed it back then.
Four years ago I´ve been released from a clinic which was supposed to cure me from my destrucive eating habits. Well, as you might imagine, that did not happen.
In fact, I felt worse than ever before.
Sure, weightwise I was considered „healthy“, I felt more energetic than I had for an entire year and my hair was finally growing back (which apparently didn´t stop me from plugging my eyebrows to a bare minimum- what was I thinking?!).
But my stress levels were as high as ever. The amount of food I was confronted with, completely overwhelmed my anorexic self! I felt like a pig, stuffed within an eight month´s period to then be slaughtered by the butcher.
No wonder that after my release from the clinic, the pounds where dropping again.
But then, something happened. My little brother´s eight year old friend died of cancer. I realized that I had treated my life like an unopened gift thrown away! I didn´t care about the present. (Wow, I should consider a career as poet.)
I had that `click´- moment. A moment when my body sat down with my brain to explain: “When will you learn not to take me for granted, you stooopid ***?! I can´t do this anymore. You need to stop this shit RIGHT. NOW.”
And finally, I listened.
What the clinic could not achieve, I did myself.
“God helps those who help themselves.”
I believe that we are capable of achieving ANYTHING we set our mind to. Just like I `managed´ to destroy myself, I built myself back up. This time not only physically- but also mentally.
I worked out what worked for me and my friends supported me throughout the whole time (Yes, I do have friends.).
Mentally strong, I wanted my body to be strong as well- I found my true passion in weight training and bodybuilding. The right exercises and nutrition allowed me to build the body I´ve always wanted- without restricting or starving myself. I LOVE IT.
By now I consider myself a professional “Not-giving-a-damner“ for any anorexic triggers.
How I got to this point?
I read tons of books and articles about anorexia and eating disorders but none of them actually helped me. On the contrary: Often, they triggered me into old thinking patterns of feeling “fat” or “worthless”!
BUT: In this blog I will share with you the things I did (and still practice) to become happy.
When we´re happy, we can be healthy.
What I need to know from you is:
ARE YOU READY TO BE A BADASS?!
Lots of love,